JOLLYBLOGGER

Health Update - 11-23-09

Bad news - got the results of the CT Scan today.  The lesions in my liver and lungs show signs of growth. The growth isn't dramatic, not like they doubled in size or anything but they did show some signs of growth.

I'll go in next week for a meeting with the doctor and we'll discuss where to go from here.  But, looks like I'll be heading back to chemotherapy.  I did ask the doctor when we were in last week if, should I need to go back on chemo, we could do it after the holidays.  She said yes, or if we do need to do it sooner, we can work around the holidays so I can enjoy Christmas.

Also, apologies to all of you who have wondered where I have been lately.  A couple of months ago I really started getting depressed and frankly didn't feel like going online, either on the blog or Facebook.  I do appreciate very much all of you who have been checking on me, but I just kind of withdrew and focused on my life in the real world.

Though I have been depressed, my faith is not shaken, I still trust that God is good and is present.  I have experienced a good bit of what Luther said when asked if he loved God - he is reported to have said on at least one occasion - "love God, sometimes I hate Him!"  But, this is where the theology of the cross has been helpful - it reminds me that even when Christ was on the cross feeling forsaken by God, that God was still present and in control.  It's the same way with me - I don't like what He's doing but I have no doubt He's the one doing it. 

I'll try to keep you posted.  Also, my family will be keeping updates going at "The Dave Wayne Group" on FB.

The Dave Wayne Group on Facebook

My son Michael, henceforth known simply as "The Great One" has set up a group for me on Facebook titled appropriately, "The Dave Wayne Group."  He'll be posting updates about my health on it for those of you who want to keep up.  I'll also try to do that, but lately there hasn't been much news. I'm waiting on the results of a CT scan right now so Mike and I will post the results here and there when they become available.

Here's the link to join -

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?filter=app_2361831622#/group.php?gid=183814306435&ref=nf

The Question that Now Haunts Me

The question that now haunts me . . .

What was Belichick thinking?

Self-Pity as Narcotic

I gotta agree with David Powlison here:

“Feeling sorry for yourself is one of the strongest, most addictive narcotics known to man. It feels so good to feel so bad. Self-pity arises so easily, seems so plausible, and proves so hard to shake off.”

Sadly, the reason I agree with this is that I know it well from personal experience.

The Passion of Christianity

Here's Oswald Chambers from today:

The passion of Christianity is that I deliberately sign away my own rights and become a bond-slave of Jesus Christ. Until I do that, I do not begin to be a saint.

Logos 4 Is Here

My most valuable bible study tool is my Logos Software.   Their latest incarnation is out today and it looks to have a number of great new features.  Here's a few screenshots.  Here's an overall layout showing several of the tools you can use at one time:

Some nice graphics:

Here's a part of a passage guide:

I can't recommend Logos too highly and this new version looks to be better than ever.